On October 21st, 2026— I decided to take a flight to Malaga, Spain and to live here for the next 3 months. It’s 4 days in and Venus is in Scorpio, Mercury just went into retrograde. It’s 1:36 AM in the morning and I am wide awake. It’s nerves, anxiety, worry, stress, all of my shit coming up to the surface. It doesn’t matter where you go in the world — your problems come with you.
My biggest task for the next 7-9 days is to find a short-term apartment. I feel sick typing that!
I cannot believe I am typing this “I packed 2 suitcases and I’m in Spain for 3 months.”. I left behind my family — only temporarily but I have never been away from them for this long. Everything here is unfamiliar. I do not speak the language, I know 3 people here and I am still finding my footing.
I do not know what I am searching for. I have no idea what the Universe has in store for me. I know nothing and I trust everything. I am simply listening to the commands of my body and my gut.
I spent the evening crying because my heart chakra is going through an awakening. My love life is weird, my money is stagnant. My body is adjusting to a new frequency and I feel “off”. All of my worst fears are bubbling to the surface!
Being here is divinely guided that’s for sure. 12 year old me would be shitting her pants that we are doing this!
Yet, I feel everything will work out. I am living my dream life, I am so fucking lucky I could pack up my shit and just come here.
Let’s see what the rest of 2026 has in store for me.